Cloud 3 in Pink

My husband always tells me that I'm good for him. He's the type of person that likes to float in the clouds while I have my feet firmly planted on the ground. He says I can always bring him back down to earth. I'm not sure if I was just born that way or through life's journeys I gradually became that way. That's not to say I don't have dreams and wishes. In fact, there's a part of me that likes to float on Cloud 3 every once in a while. And by floating on Cloud 3 I mean I get an inkling to have another baby, a baby girl. I love my boys more than anything and most days I feel complete. Then there are days, like today, I get a tug on my heart and dream about having a little girl.

My husband has 3 kids, a daughter from a previous relationship and our 2 boys. He says he doesn't want anymore, but he'd be willing to try for a girl if it was what I really wanted. I appreciate and find it awfully sweet that he would be willing to have another to fulfill my dream. But then there's that part of me that has my feet so rooted to the ground that makes me question the reality of having another. Can we afford another baby? Can I handle being a SAHM with 3 kids? How would it effect the boys? What if we were to have another boy? How would I feel? And with these questions come doubt and eventually I push the idea of having another baby to back of my mind once again.

I hate when people ask us if we are going to have another or if we are going to try for a girl. Our automatic answer is to look at them like they are crazy and tell them maybe in a few years. But behind that look is tinge of pain in my heart. Will we ever have another? Not just another, but a girl?  Right now I just don't know. What I do know is whatever happens, I'm eternally greatful for my boys. They are the light of my world and I can't imagine my life without them.

Addicted

I am so addicted to craft/DIY blogs. I literally lose myself in them, searching for my next great project. Though I often get a great idea, but never carry through with it. I love looking at what people can make. It really amazes and inspires me how crafty some people can be. And I really love when the things they make are made out of of pratically anything laying around the house or costs next to nothing. I wish I had an ounce of creativity these people have in their pinky.

I often read of how people pick things up from Goodwill and turn it into something fabulous. I don't know how many times I've gone to Goodwill looking for something to make my own, but I often only see it for what it is. I can't see how to turn it into something awesome.

BUT I was able to turn a drabby cork board I picked up from GW into a cool looking board for the boys room. This is one of my proudest achievements. A little paint, fabric, staples, buttons, ribbon, a hot glue gun, and presto.

Recently I found a really cool idea for some Christmas gifts. Check it out here. I've already bought the washers, stamping set, and makers. I just haven't attempted to try it yet. I might just have to give it a whirl today. I suppose that will be for a later post.

Some of my favorite craft blogs:

http://bunchofcraft.blogspot.com/

http://www.tipjunkie.com/ -this is a great one, it often accumulates a bunch of crafts from different blogs

http://firefliesandjellybeans.blogspot.com/

Halloween

I always picture the perfect Halloween as living somewhere you can actually tell it's fall. Leaves are on the ground, blowing every once in a while as the cool air whisps through. The sky filled with different shades of orange and yellow as the sun sets. Kids filling the street with all sorts of different costumes, carrying their bags or pumpkin buckets, laughing as they skip to the next house. Jack O Lanterns sitting on front porches, lit to welcome all the trick or treaters. This is something I've always wanted to experience and wanted my kids to experience. 

Even though we didn't get exactly that, I'd say we had a pretty awesome Halloween. This was the first year we took the boys trick or treating. Ben tired out pretty quickly, but Nicholas really loved it. We live out in the country so we had to go into town to a popular neighborhood. I wish I would have gotten a picture of all the cars lined up on the side of the roads in this neighborood. It was crazy. It seems as if everyone that lives somewhere you can't trick or treat had the same idea as us. But it made it all that more fun because with all the kids, it made it a little more like my perfect Halloween.

Buzz Lightyear and Woody (this was the hardest picture to get)

Ben was tiring out

When it's all over and the costume comes off, we're left with a silly boy